I HAVE IT ALL- DESAN WATSON

I can’t tabulate the numerous times I have gone through life thinking ‘if only I had.’ ‘If only I had help,’ ‘if only I had a friend,’ ‘if only I had a better brain.’ It took me 22 years to realize that all this time, I had everything I needed because I had God. 

The story highlighted in Joshua chapter 1 has really given me some perspective. Moses had died and God was now handing over the mantle to Joshua. If we look further, we see that God gave him specific instructions and encouragement that answered the queries he would have fo the assignment. 

In the very same way, God grooms us for every assignment he will ever give. When he gives us an instruction, it is an indication that we have all the tools needed to complete the task. 

As we joyfully welcome the new year, let us not forget, that God has given us everything we need to be victors. We must never forget, that though we are sent, that God is always with us.

Go write that book, work on that song, serve in that minsitry, start living in forgiveness, start living in love, start becoming better versions of our yesterday selves, everyday. This year may not be easy, but it will definitely be victorious and God will get the Glory. Take up the mantle that God has called you to carry, knowing that with God, you too, HAVE IT ALL.

-Desan Watson

01/01/2020 

PIECES CRY

There are days when I have no idea who I am, where I fit, what to do and when to do it. There are days when I feel lost. There are days that I count each minute, waiting impatiently for it to end. And the only reason I wait is because he told me that better days are coming. And though I’m tired and beat to my limit, a small yet stubborn part of me keeps fighting for those better days. That little part of my heart that dears me to ‘just keep breathing.’ 

I understand why many persons give up. Sometimes the pain gets too unbearable and your heart gets tired. Tired of having to feel yet not feel. Tired of reaching moments of extreme happiness, only to have it ripped away piece by piece. 

The inner man cries “what about me?” “When will you attend to my wounds?”How do I even respond? How do I lie to myself when I know the truth? Do I cover it up again, or do I finally take the time to feel what I feel and allow my heart to heal? 

Jury’s out. I’ve made a decision. I’m tired and I’m beat. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. So I might as well fight the right battle this time. And this time, I WIN.  

28.11.2020

Preparing for the Heat

As I sit in the presence of God, I couldn’t help but cry for the journey ahead. It finally hit me that I can’t pray for an easy life while whispering in the same breath that I want to live a sold out life. “God keep me,” “God maintain me,” “God, give me courage,” but in the back of mind I’m asking him to not let it be too hard> I don’t want to be dirt poor and suffering for God to maintain me. I don’t want to have to be faced with the scenario of doing the right thing or loosing my job, in order for God to give me courage. I don’t want to experieng courage in that way. “Lord, help me to inspire a generation,” “make me a vessel of your glory.” “Give me a life that will leave a legacy,” “Let my light shine Lord.”

I realized that though I loved God and I wanted his blessings, I wasn’t ready to get it at the end of a fight. Especially one that would bruise me.

I am Desan Watson and this is my story.

From the womb, I shared myself. 7 months in a space couped up with my now best friend and always twin sister. I wish I could say that our childhood was normal, but that just wasn’t the reality. We had our equal share of laughter, love, suffering, abuse, recovery and re-adjusting. And though I’d love to start with my childhood, I feel it best to start from the present. Where I am now?

Well, let’s start with my exact location. Right now I am sitting on my bed typing what I know will one day become the pages of one of my published books. I am typing with a laptop that was given to me as a gift by a woman I would have never met if not for the divine positioning of God. Sitting here on a bed that I share with my mom, knowing that one day I will not only have my own bed, but so many options of rooms, that I may just sit in the kitchen to settle my indecisiveness. I have realized that somehow I am now understanding my purpose as if it was shown to me already. So here’s what I do know. I know that I am destined to be a Minister, A first lady of Ministry, A multiple best-selling author, life coach, websites holder, Worldwide Missionary. I know that God has called me to be in medicine, but I’ve realized that whenever I talk about my purpose and what I’m sure about, being a doctor does not come up. And this confuses me, because all this time it was one of the things on the top of my confident list. Well, I’m going to leave this right here. I am putting it in writing as a declaration that I trust that it will happen. I am putting the vision in writing. I believe that is the first step of preparing for the fire. Seeking the will of God. Written May 7, 2020

Responding to the Call of God: Lesson 1

If you are like me, you may be wondering how to respond to the call of God. You may already know that you are anointed for a task in this generation. You may already know that God is speaking to you through that still small voice that whispers, “pray,” “turn,” “don’t take that,” “don’t touch that.” You are sure that God is prompting your heart to a new level. If that’s how you feel, then you are in the right place.

Today, as I sat in the taxi, I distinctively heard the holy spirit tell me to check the tea cup in my bag. I pulled the bag, looked and everything seemed fine. Now that I’ve gone through my first class, and ready to take my books out to go do some work in the library, I realize that my books, and the other contents in my bag are messed up with tea.

As I type this article, I feel a bit disappointed, because my mind keeps wondering “what is the purpose of having such a wonderful friend such as the Holy Spirit to give me warnings, yet I still fall in the traps?” It then occurred to me, that I was hearing (the faculty of perceiving sounds) the Holy Spirit, but I wasn’t listening (giving attention to the sound and respond through actions.

So, why am I telling you this? Because in responding to the call of God, we must first learn to not just hear, but to listen.

—–Check out these examples—–

Mary hears her children in the other room laughing. – She perceived the sound of laughter and made a conclusion.

Mary listened to the noise coming from the children’s room. She then realizes that though two voices were laughter, there was another voice with tears. – She focused on the sound and drew conclusion.

Hearing from God

I would be mistaking if I dared to talk about hearing from God, and not mention that we hear God through his words. Maybe, some of you are at the stage where you cannot relate with hearing that inner soft voice that so many people speak about. I want you know that you can still hear from God through his words.

So what does the word of God say?

  • We have a friend in the Holy Spirit

But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you (John 14:26 – NIV).

  • Christ’s death paid for our sins.

God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God (2 Corinthians 5:21 – NIV).

  • Through Christ you have liberty.

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom(2 Corinthians 3:17 – NIV).

My friend, you are loved by God and he has made provisions to meet you at whichever level you are at. Before you start this journey of answering the call of God, you need to hold on to that truth and promise yourself to never let it go. I encourage you to hold on to that truth, because there will be days that your situation and your feelings will tell you otherwise, and the only way to get out, is to hold on to the truth despite the odds that are against you.

Before you continue,

  • stop and pray
  • Re-read the scriptures
  • and most importantly, reflect.

Hey. It’s ok. You may need to stop here today. Just make sure you follow the three steps above. They may seem very simple, but isn’t it always the simple things that make the big difference?

Until next time, stay encouraged and be blessed. Up next, we’ll discuss listening to God.